Okay, okay I'll admit that my last post was done in the heat of the moment and written when I was very angry. Clearly. However, I don't regret it.
We've been friends for almost 5 years now, and it hasn't even been a month and I already feel like you're a completely different person. I know we're not talking right now but that doesn't mean awkwardly avoiding me and not giving me the time of day. Each time I look up to smile at you or at least look at you, your head immediately goes down. I look at the girls you have liked in the past and then I look at myself. I'm not sure what the difference between them and me was that I was only to be used. Of course I'd like to of done things differently but then I wouldn't have this period of teaching from God directing me onto the right path. Obviously I want you in my life, as my friend and haven't given up hope that we soon will be again, but for now I'm trying to put my faith in God that this is what is best right now. I just wish you would handle it differently/better.
Realizing that you don't miss me breaks my heart and I wish there was something I could do about it. Actually I wish there was something I could have done to prevent this. You'd think best friends would miss each other, but wait, you never considered us best friends in the first place so... It's just all so peculiar. I feel like I don't even know you anymore.
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