You think that I want to see you happy? And that I want to see you doing better but not better than me? I want you to be completely deserted. I want all of your friends to leave you. I want you to hit rock bottom. I fell sick to my stomach knowing you are happy and are getting away with this. I could easily ruin your whole life. It's not fair that I'm the miserable one, that I'm the only one facing consequences and that I'm the one left with nothing and no one. I don't even know who you are anymore. This just goes to show that you really fooled me. I believed everything you said, even when I said I didn't, I did. You made me believe I was actually someone and something. It's clear you meant none of it. I take back all of the times I stuck up for you and complimented you to other people.I wish I hadn't been so stupid. You were the only one who understood me and knew exactly what to say. I don't have that anymore. And you of all people should feel like crap for that. My family is tearing me down and I am breaking. I have no where to run and no where to go. Thank you for all of this. Really. The last words you spoke to me were so fake that I can't comprehend how I even thought they were true in the first place.
And just like always, I don't hate you. However, I can firmly say now, I wish I did.
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