If you couldn't already tell I speak French. I'm not yet fluent but I like to think I'm almost there. Tu me manques is one of my favorite sayings in French because it doesn't mean "I miss you". It means "you are missing from me" which in my opinion, is beautiful.
This all feels like a dream. A dream where I'm trying so hard to wake myself up but it isn't working. It all just happened so fast and I don't want to pretend that the last 4 years didn't happen. It doesn't feel real because I don't want to believe it. But I know I have to because God's plan for me is far greater than anything I could ever imagine.
I'm always one to tell people, "don't care what other people think!" but I'm so scared that you'll forget about me. To get past this, I guess I really shouldn't be thinking this way but I can't help it. It seriously scares me.
I am thankful that this week is finals because they are the only distraction I have right now to keep myself sane. However, after tomorrow, I'm finished classes until the 24th of January... And here I go again always thinking ahead and of the future. Sometimes that can get me into trouble but it's not entirely a bad thing, right? Sometimes the future scares me, not always, but definitely this time.
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