Most nights I can't fall asleep. The reason for my insomnia is probably for two reasons. First, what the past 10 posts have been about on here... and second, my crazy encounter that most people can't seem to believe. I still get nightmares. I can't count the amount of times I've said, "I'm not afraid anymore" because it's far too much. You may not think partaking in Wii boxing would be effective, but I've grown into a wicked right hook. Laugh all you want. Although I don't go anywhere without anyone anymore, except on campus, which is in Chester so I should feel even more unsafe, I'm still finding myself looking over my shoulder and clenching my fists. I don't like to talk about it, and frankly, if you ask me about it, I'll probably say, "I'm fine" and try and act like a badass who has recovered from this. Truth is, I haven't. I've tried to write blog posts about it but end up deleting all of it when I'm barely halfway through a paragraph.
It's made for some pretty sleepless and restless nights. I'm hoping that one day, hopefully soon, I can write a post where I can honestly say that I'm not afraid anymore.
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