If you're reading this you must be incredibly bored because you're sitting here reading my lame posts that have no meaning unless you know what I'm talking about. I had a somewhat change of heart since yesterday, I know I know hard to believe but it's true.
I went out for coffee with two of my friends and was set back for a minute to look at the good time I was having. I shouldn't let anyone bring me down especially not him who shall be named or who I haven't even named. But if he's reading this he knows it's about him. Or doesn't since he's completely oblivious to everything and anything anymore.
I shouldn't make someone my priority if I'm not one of theirs. You may be thinking well duh...why are you just figuring this out now? And honestly I couldn't tell you. I was probably blinded by my own desires and not focusing on the bigger picture. I can't have my life sidelined by waiting around for him all the time or wishing things were different. So until you talk to me, have a nice life.
I'm done being second best. Or third or last.
You led me on from the beginning, told me what you wanted yet continued on to your leading ways. The truth is, I can't do it anymore. It's tearing me apart and it's time for me to be happy for once. I can't keep waiting around for something that may never happen.
Yes, I am a chicken for not talking to you. But with texting you first comes along with more waiting and guilt and wandering thoughts.
You're probably one of the nicest people I've become friends with but if you're gonna treat me like we're something more when you're clearly not ready? I can't do it.
No I'm not being selfish, for once, I'm doing something for me.
"it's hard to wait around for something you
know will never happen, but it's even harder
to stop waiting when you know it's everything
you want."
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