homeschooler?

Wow it's been a long time, and it makes me thingk of how busy i've been, ugh.
But I went to the homeschoolers graduation this past sunday and it was really cool. Then all the juniors were talking about how they are going to be next and they wished i was graduationg with them, then I started thinking.

I have always wondered what it would be like if I was homeschooled. I always thought, "nah, I wouldn't be able to do it." But it stuck in my head and is still stuck in my head. It is scaring me a little bit. So lets take a step back... No one at school knows about my "other life" at church and with all my friends that I hangout with the most. Don't go thinking that I'm a loser at school and have no friends haha, I have friends but they are "school friends". Only a handful are ones that I hangout with. The rest of them I don't hangout with; because, all they do is smoke weed and drink on the weekends; especially during the summer. I obviously don't do that or want to be a part of it. Now take one more step back to about 3 weeks ago. My softball coach came up to me in church and said she saw me standing on a line. The line was dividing school and church, and in the center is God. I don't have to pick a side but it would be easier because it would make my focus on God.

Now come back to the graduation night. I had a feeling inside of me to ask God, what if I was homeschooled? Do I want to be? Because honestly, I think I have figured out that my real friends are the ones at church. I do have "real" friends from school but the true ones are at church. I've prayed for two nights to try and figure out if I am supossed to be homeschooled, and here's why...

I'm sick of being choked by collared shirts everyday for our uniform, Im sick of trying to impress everyone because thats just normal at public school. I hate having to wake up super early in the morning and doing the same routine every day. I hate being around all the profanity and innapropriate things that are talked about, which turn me into someone im not. It's hard to work with people you don't like, get made fun of, and deal with the things of the world that don't honor God. I feel trapped in a box at school knowing that im not honoring him and feeling awful about going along with the kids at school. For example, my first block class is english and my class is rough. I'm doing very well in the class,and when she puts us in groups I do all the work, and obviously that doesn't make me feel good.
I don't know why it's stuck in my head, I just need to be told what to do. I've come to the sense that theres two possibilities to becoming homeschooled.
The first is that it would be great, and I should have done it a long time ago. I would become a better person.
The second would be that it would be a huge mistake and I would be awful at it and get no work done. But I work well by myself because I can do the ideas that I want and there wouldn't be conflict.


signed, confused and seeking advice.

love, abby.