we wish we knew, atleast i do.

the hair on your arms sticks up and you feel your heart start to drop. you want to smile and everything to go the way you want. but it doesn't always.
you will probably figure out what this post is about if you haven't already by the end.

it's hard to understand why he doesn't tell you or know exactly what you want him to say. maybe you have to tell him first, something i am not the best at. it kills you inside and drops hints everywhere. they're probably blatantly obvious but he doesn't see.
it's hard to deal with your feelings inside and wondering what he thinks of you. it's hard to wait, because you never really know, at least i don't.
falling asleep at night makes you think too much and wonder and dream of scenario's that dance in your head and won't leave you alone, at least mine won't.
it's hard to watch other girls and hope that he is thinking of you, otherwise it makes you feel uneasy.

i get butterflies and a big smile, self-conscious at times because i worry too much.
i hope i look okay and there isn't anything in my teeth. hopefully you notice the outfit i chose to wear and tried to make my hair perfect, hopefully.

love, abby.
"it's hard to wait around for something when you know it might never happen, but it's even harder to give it up when you know it's everything you want."